waaaah, i’m losing myself! just when i’m half way there before i get to clerkship, after all my efforts for the past 2 years to sustain my satisfactory grades, tsaka pa ako mapapagod ng ganito. i have tried everything, i even remind myself everyday - to study harder so that God will not have a reason to fail me - but it still didnt work. I even tried to cut my hair (always my outlet, a new haircut) just so i would feel different. My hair is growing back but i still feel lousy. i need a reason to hang in there! i need something to push me to work, work, work like i used to. nobody’s even bothering me now, so why the loss of concentration and misplaced priorities? i don’t know, i don’t know, i don’t know.
darn, i need pressure now. as in right now!
